Confused and counting

It seems almost silly to be worrying about my future so much, but I can't help it. There is so much I am interested in, and I don't know what path to take. I guess all I can do is hand it over to God, but it's so hard to just let go. It's like relinquishing control over you life.

There are several different areas that I'm interested in.  I'm interested in theatre, in music, and in writing.  I don't know what way to pursue.  In one way I fee really  drawn to music, but in the other way, everyone expects me to do it, so I feel pressured sometime.  Like when I was circling career choices on a web the other day in class, somebody looked at it and said "I thought all yours would be about music!" It irks me.  I resent that.

I really love acting, and it's one of my passions.  However, every little girl's dream is to become an actress, and it's so hard to make it.  I don't even want to go there really.  I'd love to do theatre.

I don't know.

I'm blue da ba dee da ba die...

You know, I'm starting to like and accept the fact that my personality is blue/idealist. Two days ago in Careers class, we divided up into our colour groups: the blues got together, the oranges, the greens, and the golds. I wasn't there, I was singing with the school, uh, "choir" in the music-festival. When I came back, the colour groups has written their likes and dislikes on big pieces of paper on the board. Everything that the blue group wrote fit with my interests. Here is what they wrote:
We Like: music, food, talking, chick flicks, JUNO, summer, Popsicles, home sweet home and animals. We go crazy when we face: nagging, teachers, homework, science 2D, relatives, math, and dirt... Paul likes dirt.

This completely equates to me. I love music and food, chick flicks are amusing, Juno is one of my favourite movies ever, summer is the only time I ever relax fully, I love popsicles when they're chocolate (and other ones aren't half-bad either), I love being at home, and I'm obsessed with cats. In the dislikes, I LOATHE nagging, most teachers aren't half bad people, but they annoy me sometimes when they are teaching, I hate homework because I never do it and fall behind, Science 2D is my least favourite subject this semester, I like relatives but I need my personal space, I had trouble with math last semester, and sure... yay for Paul liking dirt :)

The funny thing is that the orange group's answers, the group I really wanted to be in, annoyed me to no end. And I realized that I'm not in that group for a reason, I don't always get along well with those people... it's just not my personality type. Some of their answers that I found annoying were (exactly as they were written) Likes: Hockey, Gum, and Facebook, Dislikes: Feet, B.O. (aka body odour), and classical music. I mean, why put body odour on there? Nobody likes it, and I thought it was dumb the way they wrote it. I will not comment on the classical music jibe because I will probably start to rant and rave about how "classical" music is actually a mis-nomer and how people misunderstand it... there I go. I shall be quiet now.